Another beginning

recovering14@yahoo.com — Sat, 08 Mar 2008 14:10:51 GMT

I am starting over again.

Dealing with life on life's terms....

recovering14@yahoo.com — Fri, 01 Feb 2008 21:58:07 GMT

I am going through a lot today. I know I am not the only one that goes through trials and tribulations. I think I am dealing with it positively. I have been talking to my husband all day about it.....

I can make it easy or hard, it's my choice...

recovering14@yahoo.com — Sat, 26 Jan 2008 15:52:09 GMT

I have decisions I can make today to stay clean or go out. When life seems hard I must remember how hard it really was out there when I was in active addiction.

Growth

recovering14@yahoo.com — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 12:32:08 GMT

Things I am doing differently today that is working for me.....

First time on at the online meeting....

recovering14@yahoo.com — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 18:17:21 GMT

I went to the online meeting for the first time today. I really enjoyed it. All though I was not sure how to do it at first I think I caught on soon after. It will take me awhile to get it.

Today I am doing good, all though I am dealing a little with being jelous and insecure about my hubby being out with a male friend of his. They are both going to a junk yard to look at parts for cars and all, very innocent but I am worried that he is really going to go see a woman. That is so stupid. My hubby is a very good man and if he had wanted to have an affair he would have done it a long time ago when I was out in my addiction. When I was away for over 5 months. It is really about my insecurity and about beating myself up about the things I did when I was out in my addiction. He is a Godly man who loves the Lord and believes in marraige. He would not cheat on me. I just seem to get so paranoid about losing him and it turns into insanity and obsessive thoughts about it. If anyone has an suggestion on how to get through those times I would greatly appriciate it. I want to have more faith and I know that I need to take these concerns to my HP.

Last night I went to Celebrate Recovery, it was really neat. I was so nervous though. It was very intersting and I had never been to a Christian 12 step program befor. I believe that I will be going there again in the next few weeks. I am going to NA tonight in Bonham Texas and am looking forward to that. That is my homegroup and I have not been there in a really long time.

So what else, I am so very happy about this site. It is so far the best recovery site I have found yet with lots of meetings and enouragement. I thank you alll for taking the time for reading my blog and helping me through my first online meeting. Hugs, Katrina

My first blog.

recovering14@yahoo.com — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 15:41:56 GMT