Today was the first day, after 8 months, I was allowed to go outside alone with my son! I was so happy, I felt so amazing. I worked very hard, and finally it was here. We rode a bus, we walked in a park, we played. He was very very happy, curious, exited. It was such an amazing feeling to be trusted with my son again. I felt like a real mother again. I make sure, I will go to the meeting tomorrow, and tell the good news.
There was a moment, I felt overwhelmed, I was giving in to my son with his demands. I wasn't even sure what I was supposed to do. I don't want him to cry, I want him to be happy with me, and fallowing the rules isn't always happy. But I managed, he dind't really cry, and we had a best time. SO far, so good.