I'm having a rough time today. Nothing happened, I went to a meeting, I went bowling, I laughed till my side ached. Than I drove home & somwhere on the 30 minutes it took me to get home the darkness took me over. I can't stop crying. Before I went into recovery I was working a decent job & going to school. My grades were good & I was getting promoted @ work..but I needed to put my addiction recovery first so I stoped. I stoped working & I stoped school. I stoped my frienships, I stoped my additude, I just stoped everything.
I know deep down inside that I made the right choice. I know that my addiction would catch up to me but ,at least on paper, my life was better than. I read the promises everyday. I long for them..I want them more than anything & I am willing to do anything to get them but it really feels like I am taking two steps backwards for everyone step ahead. ...