It's hard for me when it comes to the point where I have to make a decision, especially when it is an important one. I read in a book that you should rather find a decision than make a decision. You should take your time until you have gained some clearness about the situation.

But in the process of decision making I sometimes tend to get confused or I tend to confuse myself by letting thoughts and fears entering this process. Thus, the same thoughts and fears move in a circle. I feel like being stuck.

These situation often occur when I find myself under pressure and think I have to make a decision. Then I tend to loose my openness, and my real feelings, thoughts and longings seem to be no longer available to me.

Usually, I have two options, in this case, whether I should stay in England and spend some more time here or go back to Germany which is my home country. I am scared of selecting the "wrong" choice because I wasted quite a lot of time in my life and I do not want any more weeks or months to be wasted. Praying helps and taking my time seems to be essential to me, but right now, fear has gained too much control over me.

I would be grateful for any advice you could offer to me

Thank you

Chris