My ex husband killed himself yesterday overdosing.  This disease is no joke. It wants to kill and it did, once again.

Kim, words fail me at the moment.  Please know you are loved.

((((((((( Carol ))))))))) thank you for being here and for talking yesterday. thank you all for being here.

hugs and love

YOUR IN MY PRAYERS........

Kim

First I want you to know that you are deeply loved and cared for here by me and the many others who have been blessed to know the beauty and joy you bring here and to the others around you.

I, as many other alkies and addies, here and in your f2f community, know the pain of losing someone near to them to the effects of this disease.

If you are like me it hurts, burns to the core of the heart, that someone could be pulled that low by it and sometimes makes me question my own strength and quality of sobriety. I have known those dark places of the heart and the lonely times in the night when living seems so difficult and staying sober is so hard.

It is the faith in this program and my Higher Powers and the living proof I have around me of the sober alcoholics, clean addicts and all the other miricles of recovery that pulls me through those times.

When the pain comes and you feel his loss and the other loses you will come to know in the days ahead, do not fear to take that pain and hold it in one hand. It is there to allow you to undrstand how precious life and the other gifts you have truly are. And then in the other hand take and hold onto the love and support of those here and around you. That is to let you know how cherished you are and that we count you as one of those precious gifts.

Your Brother in Sobriety

hobie

Thank you for your prayers.

Thank youfor being here, sharing your ES&H, your love, support and caring. You all are the best!

For someone on the outside looking in, and not understanding the reality of what we are doing when we do the things we need to do to stay sober we may seem selfish and self-centered, but in truth it is the opposite.

If you are an alcoholic like me you suffer from alcoholism not “wasim”. It is an affliction of mind and body that affects me today, not yesterday.

Left unattended it will draw me into a state of depression filled with restlessness, irritability and discontent. If I do not do the things I need to do to maintain my emotional, spiritual and mental health I will grow resentful, remorse and become overwhelmed by my regrets.

Long before I pick up that first drink I will become useless and filled with self-pity and anger. I will hate my life and nothing will have meaning.

I will be dry.

If I stay that way I will eventually become drunk, dead (probably at my own hand) find some other addiction or slip into clinical depression. I can attest to the last two for I have done them. I can also say I have seen others in our fellowship do all four.

Never be ashamed of doing what you need to do to maintain your sobriety, sanity and/or spiritual condition. In doing it you are taking the actions necessary for you to be a productive valuable member of our society and the world around you.

hobie