10/2/07

I have lately been logging all my thoughts as a means of measuring how many negative thoughts intrude into my head.

I had watched a dvd called "secrets' and it was so powerful. It spoke about we have the power to achieve anything if we simply change our attitudes and thought process. Like with getting sober we need that complete psychic change, we need to do the same in order to achieve the things that we want.

The first thing we have to do is to establish a gratitude list and note all the things that are good in our lives.

Being the alcoholic with the mangified thinking I tend to become focused on the littlest negative thing that may have been said or done in passing, as opposed to focusing on my reaction and thoughts towards things. I have noted that yesterday I had a 50/50 of both postivie and negative thoughts throughout the day. Today that was improved on.

The belief that you are what you think becomes manifested. If you think about all the debts and the little funds that you have and are constantly whining about it then that is what you will attract. If you applaud the good that is in your life then you will attract the good. Getting rid of old attitudes and behaviours has been a journey and some have gone quite quickly and others have taken their time and needed much work.

I have in the past shared much about the phsycial abuse at the hands of my mother and brother and the constant role of victim that I had remained in. I guess there was a need to feel those feelings sober, but I can let them go now and know that all is well and move forward. I am disappointed tonite that I cannot make it to my weekly bingo game with the ladies, but such is life. thats me for now will post again later. - Fi