When I first came into AA, the only things that really made sense to me were
"One Day at a Time" and "principles before personalities". the first, because it was the only way I could deal with not drinking, and the latter because it was something I had
always believed in, whether I actually practiced it or not.
As the fog in my head began to clear, I started learning the 12 Steps and the Principles behind them. When I got to the 12th Step and "practice these principles in all our affairs", I suddenly was overwhelmed, and fully understood what was meant by "What an order -- I can't go through with it!". I couldn't fathom living by these principles ALL THE TIME -- how could anyone be so perfect?? I was reminded frequently of the words "progress, not perfection", but it still seemed out of reach. In time, as I learned to rely more upon my Higher Power, it became easier, but I still have to be vigilant and maintain my spiritual connection.
Sometimes, I have to remind myself what the principles are:
1. Surrender
2. Hope
3. Commitment/Faith
4. Honesty/Courage
5. Truth/Integrity
6. Willingness/Acceptance
7. Humility
8. Reflection/Brotherly Love
9. Justice/Amendment
10. Vigilance
11. Spritual Awareness/Attunement
12. Service
In my relatively short sobriety, I have seen many people in the rooms who talk the talk -- they can recite the Big Book verbatim, and wax poetically about the principles; however, there are not as many who walk the walk -- those who truly practice these principles in all their affairs.
I admire those who walk the walk, and I hope to follow in their footsteps.