Pink's ideas on multiple problems: Somedays it rains and some it shines. Then there's the day it does both followed by an ice storm!
It shined the day I found out I was alcoholic. Hope soon followed. Older Lady that adopted me said there was more and it began to rain. After that.....well, I'm still here, barely surviving the simple discovery of more.
I love AA. I revere the Power behind AA. I believe in singleness of purpose because I respect AA. Alcoholics Anonymous has never been out to get people with other problems. Maybe a few misguided members have but not AA. So I see it like this: this other problem is a part of my life thus I may mention it, but not talk about it. There is a difference between mentioning and talking about. Refer to As Pink Sees It page 14,238. J/K
It just would not be fair to expect AA members to know or understand my other problem. It would be like forcing my family to understand my alcoholism. They need to know I have it and thats it. It won't hurt for them to learn more or show me empathy but that should be at their request, followed by as much humility as I can possibly muster.
Outside the meeting I'm a human being and can talk about anything I want including my other problem, however, I'm mindful that the newcomer comes here, to AA, you know the alcohol recovery place, for a booze problem first and formost.
I made my own little theory to keep my ego in place. Did this cause I've seen long term sobriety argue its way right out of the disease of alcoholism and then die drunk....go figure. Anyway, it works for me, and it goes like this:
There is only 100% pain. At 101% pain we expire / die. Some days my alcoholism attacks me 100%. Other days my other problem does. Or maybe they hit me 60% other and 40% alcoholism. Even in recovery, me being better and all and my problems being in remission they still have 100% of an area to attack me and cause me pain. So it becomes necessay to apply 60% and 40% efforts from each recovery program. This is what the Pros (docs) call synergizing your programs. I think thats soo cute - I'm synergized Mind you, this is only theory for keeping my ego right sized.
Some days I think my other problem is worse than alcoholism. Now you know what my ego could do with that. I could work my way right out of AA. I'm in worse shape, require more recovery, blah, blah, you just don't understand blah, blah. That's just not true. Remember, at 101% you're dead or maybe have returned to your home planet.
Still I know that alcoholism gets its fingers into everything and pulls it into its world. Thats a simple fact I can live with. It's like the movie the THING. It shapes itself after its victim taking on all its attributes till it looks and acts just like the victim did in the first place, cept now its the THING.
A simple work shop asks who is worse off? The THING? or the Thing's THING? The 100% alky or the 60 / 40 alky? The 100% alky is being attacked by more alcoholism on a given day but has 100% of the program required to keep it in remission. The 60% alky is the same with 60% recovery program plus has to 40% to mow the lawn with or whatever 
Pain is pain and 100% is all there is. God doesn't give us more than we can handle whether its 100% of a recovery program or 60 + 40 = 100%. I do appreciate what it says in the opening thread, it's more "complicated."
It's more complicated not we're more complicated That was not an invitation to brag 
Anyway, all I'm really saying is the THING is out to get us and if you're not careful it'll use that other THING which is out to get you, so try to keep your THINGS synergized. 
Just trying to be a bit lighthearted this morning with all this but truely it has worked for me keeping my ego in place for some time now.
"God can't part with the sight of your Silverwings"
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