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Larry User is Offline
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03/31/2007 10:58 PM Alert 
 

I’m an alcoholic and my name is Larry. I introduce myself this way because first and foremost I am an alcoholic.

I won’t go into a long drunk-a-log. I will touch on a few significant incidents in my long journey to sobriety.  I grew up in a small town in the mid west. My family life was typical for that area. None of my family drank and in my opinion was excessively religious.

I got drunk for the first time at the age of 12. I did it because my friends

did. Amazingly I liked it. Go figure. I continued to get drunk when I could. When I joined the Marine Corps in 1973 it was on. I now know that sometime in that year is when I crossed that invisible line. I stayed in for 7 years. During that time I got married. It lasted 14 years and we had 2 sons.

 The drinking took its toll during that time and the last 5 years of that we lived in separate houses. Needless to say we finally went our separate ways.

I got my first DUI in 1993. I had just gotten married again and had a new baby girl. I was on my way back from picking up my youngest from my ex. He got to go to jail with dad until grandpa could come and get him. He was 11 years old. You would think that would have stopped me. Well it didn’t.

 

It continued to get worse. By the time I got my second DUI in 2001 it was an all day everyday thing. My marriage was going away, the job I’d had for 12 years was about gone and my kids hated me. I hired a good lawyer and got off pretty easy by the standards here in Texas. I remember standing in front of the judge and he asked both lawyers a question. No AA ? I’m going to add that to his plea agreement. Three times a week for 18 months.

 

I remember my first meeting. I walked in late trying to hide. That didn’t work and I got welcomed at the door. At the end of the meeting they asked if I wanted a desire chip. They said it was free and to shut them up, I took it. That was April 30, 2001. I continued to make meetings and the 3 I was told to make a week turned into 5, 6 and even more. It took me 3 sponsors and almost 18 months to work the 12 SIMPLE STEPS. I think the only thing I did right was not drink.

 

Today my life is so much different. I have a power greater than myself that I talk to on a daily basis. I still make a lot of meetings and work with others. I have even been elected to be a trusted servant. Go figure. Six years ago I couldn’t be trusted to do anything. I even have a few friends today and I am building a new relationship with my children. By God’s grace I’ll have six years on April 30.

 

I have a lot of things to thank for this. My Higher Power, the people in AA and the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous just to name a few. I also wish to thank all the people here in Recovery Realm. You are very special to me. I have been coming here for a while. I’m a shy and quiet person and have a hard time opening up to anyone. It’s was time for you to know a little about me. Again thanks for being here.

 

It’s a good day to be sober

 

Larry


It's a good day to be sober
carrie User is Offline
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04/01/2007 9:05 AM Alert 
Thank you Larry for allowing 'us' to get to know you. Your story touched my heart. A simple share, and the format you chose kept it simple, direct and To The Point.......your story has alot of things I too can relate with. I too had 2 Dui's and should of had alot more. I hear that things all happen in God's time, so very true. 2 should have stopped me as well, but I believe I was doing what any alkie does, I drink. And so, I continued to drink. I was ( we have this saying here) paper trained (when you are court ordered to meetings and MUST have a paper signed ) and I did not like that. I did keep going and even after the paper training was done, I continued. What I did not do was work the steps. Oh I fellowshipped, there were dances, and I was at ALL of them. I had a sponsor, I never asked questions, I was a service junkie, never read literature, ad nauseam............ When I went back out there (hmmmmm, 3 and half yrs I stayed dry, intermittent times of happiness) I pursued my drink to near death experience. That still did NOT stop me. There was no magical day for this gal. Nope. Many trips to the Physhc wards (spell check?) many a wrecked cars, and ICU visit. I finally figured, Oh I'll move that is the problem. LOL....the problem was the Disease, I didn't get 'it'. But I moved, and found that I still would drink and drive to my old haunts. Finally on Oct 31 I laid on my couch and prayed, and cried out to God, "please help me, i cannot honestly stop", the OBSESSION was RAGING....I prayed for over 2 hours !!! Only to get up, and get to that bar. The guilt, the remorse, the pain, was horrible. Vowing to not ever do it again, and wondering why God didn't hear me, were questions I just did not have the answers for. WHAT I did not know was that God DID hear me that day on that couch. My last drink was 11-8-04, altho I chose to call my DOS 11-9-04, cuz that is what my sponsor told me. I awoke from my last hangover and went to a meeting, not believing I could stop after all, i had btdt AA thing........... how could I stay sober? Desperation drove me to AA....but I thank God for them Dui's, without that paper training I'd of not known what I knew...which was simply, it worked for a little while before, so why not try it again? I believe God put that in my head and heart. Only THIS TIME, I did it completely different, I did all the things I did not do before, and ya know? It's been working every since.

THANK U LARRY, for your ESH, this morning, I needed to HEAR you.........and I thank God for folks like you so willing to share and help those like me.

If I hijacked, forgive me.

And YES LARRY ITS A GREAT DAY TO BE SOBER.........................................hugs

To a desolate person an act of kindness can be the difference between getting bitter and getting better..............
Carol User is Offline
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04/01/2007 10:15 AM Alert 
Thanks for sharing Larry!!!

And Carrie????? PAPER TRAINED???? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be the change you wish to see in the world ...Gandhi
Gkathy User is Offline
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04/01/2007 10:44 AM Alert 
Thanks for trusting us enough to come out of your shyness Larry!

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. ~~~Anais Nin


kim User is Offline
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06/23/2007 5:52 PM Alert 

Larry SHY?????? lol. (((Larry ))) hugs to you and thanks for sharing with us.

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01/08/2008 10:12 PM Alert 

     Thank you Larry for opening your heart to us.I have read some of your work on this site and I like your style.You are helping others to be stronger in recovery which is great.Thanks Larry

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