As I gently wipe away a tear, I must say thank you....sometimes when you really need it you see a post, you stop, you read, you weep.....I hear the deep calling (along with wondering where the original post i had submitted went....hugs) and I think, wow, the depth of what you wrote, where did that come from?  Then i believe i know, but i keep it to myself, because for now, i simply want to cherish it.....tonight there are clouds, I cannot see the stars, but I know that from THIS day forward, when I do see a star, I wont ever look at those the same.  For now I've been touched, in my heart, and it was because of the spirituality within you....that which u chose to share.  Tonight, I got to see what I needed to see, and I wonder, how do people really love that deep?  Where does that come from?  Tilts head to see the screen better, and begins to cry once again.......someone is praying for me?  I recall the last time I laid on my couch, praying for God's help, for over 2 hours, only to rise up and go the the bar, driven by the obsession within me.  I was angry after thinking God didnt hear me, and I can never stop.....see, the thing was God did hear me, for it was not 2 weeks later, that I too, found myself in an AA meeting, and I've not picked up a drink since.  I believe that being here, getting REAL seeing honesty and love is the right road for me.  I say that alot, and i realize i prolly come across as ppl pleasing, but that is ok....God and I know the real truth, the struggles, the pain, the hurt.  The growth.  Glenn, God is using you in ways you prolly dont really understand...depth, oh the depth i feel when you post, wow....Just want to whisper 'thank u God for glenn, for this place, for the ppl here, for all those who love just the way they are"........gently hops over to kiss glenn's forehead, thanks and hops away knowing, i'll never view them stars the same.............