By brittany117 on 5/31/2009 9:14 PM

hey all...

Tonight i'm having a tough time, just as i do many other nights. My first few months in sobriety i was going to a lot of meetings, had made friends, and was calling people and going places with people. I was also jobless then. After my first 3 months, i got a job and had to take second shift because i'm on suboxone, and i have to go see a doctor and go to a group therapy session once or twice a week in the morning. All the meetings i was going to were on weeknights, and once i started my job i could no longer attend them, and eventually i lost contact with the new sober friends i had made... just as i had started to get involved, and as i was about to ask someone to sponsor me. I found weekend morning meetings i can attend, but that seems to be all i can make it to for now...and thats only 2 meetings a week. people at these meetings are friendly, but i haven't developed any friendships yet, and now i've been sober for a year and a half. i still don't have a sponsor, and i'm afraid to share at...

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By brittany117 on 5/25/2009 11:13 PM

hello...I'm new here...found this place while searching online for addiction recovery chat rooms, and i'm very glad i found this! I'm a very shy person, and it's much easier for me to speak openly about my emotions online. So, I guess this entry will just be a little bit about myself. My name is Brittany, i'm from CT, 20 years old, and i am a drug addict.

I've always felt different from everybody else...started cheating lying and stealing very early on in life. I tried cigs and alcohol in grade school, and at 14 I tried cocaine and lost my virginity. That's when things started going downhill. After that, I started smoking pot on a regular basis. I was very promiscuous once i lost my virginity, and i believe that's because i always had very low self esteem and getting any type of attention from guys seemed to be my way of validating myself of being pretty and wanted. yet i was almost always just used for the sex.

 After i started smoking pot, i discovered robitussin cough medicine, the main ingredient...

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